IT's MY LIFE

MOOD : UP AND DOWN TIDE

RELATION: FUNCTION OF MOOD

some times i believe i have everything....

most happy person in the world.....and on the other side ..

..i found myself, alone standing on the beach.......

do I love that also.................................

.........but....i cant be as strong as I show..............

why i care so much for people!!!!!!

why i get affected from them.!!!!!

why i expect a lot from them!!!!!

Is I do a lot for them.??????......more than they need!!!...require!!!....

IS that a reason i get hurted from their response!!!!!!...

is THE way i love them....

or ..............trying to understand them on every part of them

may some times mind explain heart or some times heart explain brain..

and why after that........ i cant be normal....

people say i irritate them or i beat them...does they see that much.????.......or i do just that much!!!!!!!!....

Does they never see the love which i do to them!!!!!..does they forget i to wish to talk to them..........

people think i am very rude or always being one who get angry from them........

.does they forget my life stays in them...a person who hardly talk to anyone.......not even her parents...who r really good no doubt!!!!!..........

sometimes i think i am the person who does not understand my friends.....but donno why..................

other people think i intentionally trouble them....does they didn't see i put a huge effort in just trying to solve problems, than i ask them ,may it causes a headache,

still keep staring on that blue screen so i discover my mistake............

Does they forgot their responsibility?????.....or than also m creating nuisance.....

Some dint even talk to me....may i try thousands of methods so that they talk me........irritating them ....talking to them madly....making myself as clown in front of them.........but they are without any sign of response...does they really even listening to me.????......i act as cartoon in whole mass but who knows making ma fun in front of others sometime it hurts!!!!!!..........

that is all what i can say just searching myself n mY life..............................

i doonnnoo my self:?????????????????????Do U ??????????????????

who i am???what i was?????i donno....m confused..m messed up wid my own thoughts....i used to be proud of being myself...bein happy not only in happy but gay times too..... now what is it???myself unable to depict ma feelin.....bein m a person full of xprssns......n bein famous for GO ON attitude....who cares most li'l abt others n now its all others whoz in ma life.....n that also nt ma frns bt people whom i dnt talk.....m being 1 of d most SATISFIED person on earth....now this word is missin in ma life....now hearts n brain r in 2 opposite dircns....if work acc to heart than m alwys wrong in people's mind n ...wouldnt able to xplain dem....n if go acc to brain....again life full... of confusion.....n actually i donno what i had to do??????????so................sometimes i think to read religous scripts to discover 4 what purpose i am..[bein a person who makes ma own laws who hardly believes in books]........now life is wid lots of?????? ????????donno when these will be replaced by..when i ll get me back....when i ll be again dat same old lively kanishka....waitin.....help me yeah ma god

OnE OF ThE SeaSoN OF My LIFe

Me Ma Life.....what all i have in one of its season.....

mood......an up and down tide relations.........functions of moods

some times i believe i have everything....

most happy person in the world.....and on the other side ....i found myself, alone standing on the beach.......
do I love that also..........................................but....i cant be as strong as I show..............
why i care so much for people!!!!!!...............
why i get affected from them.!!!!!!!!!!..................
why i expect a lot from them!!!!!!!!!!!.......................
Is I do a lot for them.??????......more than they need!!!...require!!!....
IS that a reason i get hurted from their response!!!!!!...
is THE way i love them...............................................planning from months ago for their birthdays
AND not even thinking about d surpises about ma birthday but about theirs.....
or ......................trying to understand them on every part
may some times ....................
mind explain heart or some times heart explain brain.........................
and why after that........ i cant be normal....thinking that will not call them...than also seeing mobile many a times may they 'll call.......
people say i irritate them or i beat them...does they see that much.????????.............or i do just that much!!!!!!!!!!!!!!....
does they never see d love which i do to them!!!!!!!..does they forget i 2 wish to talk to them..........
people think m very rude or always being 1 who get angry from them...........does they forget ma life stay in them...a person who hardly talk to any1.......not even her parents...who r really good no doubt!!!!!!!!!!.................or who hardly spent her pocket money on anything except on mobile expenses........than also they forget them.....................
sometimes i think i am d person who does not understand ma friends.....but donno why..................
other people think i intentionally trouble them....does they dint see i put a huge effort in just trying to solve problems than i ask them may it causes a headache still keep staring that screen may i get ma error.................................... does they forgot their responsibility????????.....or than also m creating nuisance.....
some dint even talk to me....may i try thousands of methods so that they talk me........irritating them ....talking to them madly....making myself as clown in front of them.........but they are without any sign of response...does they really even listening to me.????......i act as cartoon in whole mass but who knows making ma fun in front of others sometime it hurts!!!!!!!!!!!!!..........
that is all what i can say just searching myself n ma life..............................
i doonnnoo my self:?????????????????????do u ??????????????????