who i am???what i was?????i donno....m confused..m messed up wid my own thoughts....i used to be proud of being myself...bein happy not only in happy but gay times too..... now what is it???myself unable to depict ma feelin.....bein m a person full of xprssns......n bein famous for GO ON attitude....who cares most li'l abt others n now its all others whoz in ma life.....n that also nt ma frns bt people whom i dnt talk.....m being 1 of d most SATISFIED person on earth....now this word is missin in ma life....now hearts n brain r in 2 opposite dircns....if work acc to heart than m alwys wrong in people's mind n ...wouldnt able to xplain dem....n if go acc to brain....again life full... of confusion.....n actually i donno what i had to do??????????so................sometimes i think to read religous scripts to discover 4 what purpose i am..[bein a person who makes ma own laws who hardly believes in books]........now life is wid lots of?????? ????????donno when these will be replaced by..when i ll get me back....when i ll be again dat same old lively kanishka....waitin.....help me yeah ma god